It has been hard for me to sit down and write a blog lately. I was suffering from severe writer’s block. also I had a traumatic even happen to me that made me become quite morose and and I just didn’t feel that I was emotionally ready to write a blog. I do hope that some of my loyal readers have stuck around, I was not having a happy China Day that extended from one days to over a month of depression
From the title title you can garner the catalyst of that depression,. it was the death of my adorable puppy Peanut. Ever since I left America there has been an empty place in my heart because I had to leaving my baby, my best friend and my furry soul mate Bowie behind. It was a decision that broke my heart. I love dogs and I vowed when the time was right and I healed enough that I would get another dog. I did not get one last semester, because I was homeless for 2 months and traveled around China.
When I returned back to my home, I decided to get a dog. arranged for my student Lexi to find a dog for me. I gave her lists of people who had dogs available. She found one in the Pet Shop and showed me his picture. He was adorable. Oh and he was energetic too. He was small though. The pet show boss said that the dog was given an Parvo shot. He also said Peanut was 2 months. I think Peanut was younger about 5-6 weeks.
I miss you Peanut
Peanut was such a smart dog and I began to teach him how to use the litter box. He was catching on. Then i noticed that his poop began to smell horrible and then I noticed blood. He was still energetic and ate but I decided to take him to the vet. I did a search on Parvovirus and prayed that it was not that . Parvo has a high fatality rate in puppies. My heart sank when the vet told me to get another dog. He said we could try treatment but Peanut’s chances were slim.
Peanut died withing five days of me getting him. I felt like a failure. I felt cheated. He was an amazing little dog. I just wish that we had a chance to continue our path onward together. I cried for weeks. I really fell in love with Peanut from the first time that I saw him. He made everyone that met him smile. at least he experienced love in his short life. The last time I saw him he was wrapped up in my Liquid Kids T Shirt he is eyes were so sad and they looked mine. He knew he was dying. I cried and told him that I loved him and I just wanted him free of pain.
It took me awhile, but I want another dog in my life, to me dogs represent more than just an animal. To me they are your family. Since, I do not have a husband ,boyfriend or children, I really want something to love and something to love me back. i do have friends though that really supported me in my time of needs so I am loved. The next go round, I am getting a medium sized more sturdy dog. A dog that is about a year old. I Wish me luck on my search. Peanut this blog is dedicated to you.
